justaoifethings

Man Up. I hate this expression with all my soul. We see men cry, and people snap Man up! What's that supposed to mean? Have no emotions? Be a rock? What does it mean to be a man? What is masculinity? Men have emotions. Men cry. Men want to look pretty (let's not make words gender specific, pretty, handsome, it's all the same). Men get stigma for caring about their clothes. Men get stigma for being mentally ill. Men have depression. Men have anorexia. Men have anxiety. Men get panic attacks. Men get depressive episodes. Men have mental breakdowns. Men starve themselves. Men get abused. Men kill themselves. Men are human. Men have emotions. Men suffer like women do. No man or woman should tell a man to man up. Because that's telling them to not be human. To not feel. To not think. And that's simply not fair. I remember seeing a man cry for the first time. That was odd for me, and it shouldn't have been. Why did media want to keep raw emotion away fr

I feel consistently happy for the first time since... ever. I don't remember ever being consistently happy. I thought this time in my life would be awful. I'm in my final year of school, and I thought the pressures of looming exams would anger my anxiety. But it's not. This is also the first time in a long time that I've been consistently calm. I don't know what I did. I don't know what's different. I'm confused as to why I'm so happy and calm. I'm presuming I'm happy because I'm not anxious all the time. My anxiety has numbed greatly, having only had one panic attack in the past few months. I have no idea what caused that either. I wonder if it's because the life I've been planning for is just around the corner. I don't know why, but things got better. I suppose that is always the way of mental illness, if you give it time.