justaoifethings

Dear Becky, You're seeing him for the first time in months. Yes, he'll have to go home again, but this will be one of the, of not the, last time. Besides, it's been like that every time. You're not going to ruin the 10 days we have together with your shit, Becky. I'm not letting you make me worry over this stupid thing. It's going to be awesome and christmas is going to be lovely. Yes, it'll be sad when he goes home, but we're on the last stretch of the ldr then. But I'm not going to let the thoughts of him going home consume me for the 10 days because then what's the point? I'm going to live in the moment and enjoy every second, so fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off fuck off (sorry, that's rather therapeutic). Until next time, Aoife Small update: no new posts until about new years, going to spend some time with my boyfriend. Stay safe, and have a happy Christmas! X

A few weeks ago, I had a conversation with someone we'll call Lauren. She found out about my blog and asked me what I wrote about. Mental health, mostly, I told her. Isn't that morbid?, she asked. And then I was fascinated. Because I was expected to keep the suffering I had gone through to myself, because it was, and I quote, morbid. I understand that people can be triggered by certain things, but it wasn't as if she had even read the blog before, and she had no clue how I approached it. Lauren asked me, cringing, was it not attention seeking. Not at all, I told her. If you're happy about something, you would put it online. If someone else is happy about something and post it online, that's ok too. Why is that not attention seeking? Everything we put online is attention seeking in a way. Changing your profile picture on facebook is attention seeking, right? You want likes and it's how you want people to perceive you. So if that's ok, so is putting your