Sometimes I feel that I'm watching life slip by me, in terms of being social. I'm almost 18, but I've never been to a party. I was invited to one once, but had a panic attack and didn't go. Sorry about that, Eugene. On Facebook, there's pictures of people going out and just having a good time. Even in school, everyone hangs out together and everyone gets along so well. But then there's me. I'm such an outsider, and I know it. I have a couple of friends, but only one who's really close, who I know genuinely enjoys spending time with me (I hope). But even she is able to branch out, go to gigs and pubs and parties. I actually haven't seen anyone socially in about four months. I just use the excuse of school, but in reality, I'm just scared. I can't just walk up to people in school and strike up a conversation. I suppose I get paranoid. I'm afraid that people think I'm weird. I'm awkward when conversations arise which probably
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