Skip to main content

Feeling Anxious

Having anxiety, I regularly tend to feel anxious.
I've been asked if it's excessive or extreme worry or stress, but no, it's not.
It's anxiety, it's very different.

Right now, I'm feeling particularly anxious. When I say this to a person without anxiety, they assume I'm feeling worried or stressed, which isn't the case.

I feel like there's something massive weighing my chest down. I'm making a conscious effort to breathe, because if I don't, I will forget to do so. I feel as if a snake is making its way up my throat, trying to twist my oesophagus while its head rests on the back of my tongue.
My head is spinning. It goes from one thought to the next and back again in a couple of seconds. My mind is transfixed on one thing that I'm anxious on, and I know that anxiety is making me think it's worse than it is. (Or is it? I don't know.)
My senses are heightened. Every noise is irratating, and I can feel things through just a brush of a finger.
My whole body is tense. I'm sitting in an awkward position, my hands firmly grasping my phone, my legs stiff against each other, my feet curled up. I feel sick.
I feel the need to run away. I'm scared. Anxiety throws a lot of fear my way. Adrenaline is pumping, my fight or flight system is screaming at me, and I feel like sobbing because no matter what I do, I can't run away from a situation.

This isn't just excessive stress or worry, it's anxiety. It's a disorder I live with every single day. And when Becky acts up (see dear Becky series), this is what I feel like.

~~~
What are your experiences with anxiety?
I write a new blog post every week, so check back to keep updated ^-^
Facebook; justaoifethings
Twitter; @justaoifethings
Instagram; justaoifethings

Labels:

Comments

  1. Unknown26 May 2016 at 18:38

    Delighted that I found your site, fantastic info. I will bookmark and try to visit more frequently.
    Anxiety Therapy Woodland Hills

    ReplyDelete
  2. Unknown27 May 2016 at 03:11

    I'm glad you enjoyed! Was looking through your website, it's really good

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Cycle Against Suicide

An organisation set up by Jim Breen, where thousands of people cycle through Ireland every year, to break the cycle of suicide. Cleverly placed pun. Today, the lovely Mr Breen came to my school and talked to all seven hundred plus of us. In the back, wearing a disgustingly bright orange shirt in support (and feeling decidedly Dutch), I was struggling not to cry. Not that he was being morbid. He didn't delve into details of his depression, or any gruesome details of suicide. He spoke in such a way that was amazing. He spoke to us in a way that reached all levels of understanding in relation to mental health. He was able to educate those who have never experienced a mental monster, without boring them, or frightening them off the topic. Though, even with such sensitivity, he was able to touch those who had suffered mental illness. It was like a little nod to us. We knew we were understood, that he understood. For me, that is always extremely emotional. For someone to understa...
Post a Comment
Read more

The Birds of 1916

Birds flew high over Dublin City When the first shot was fired Startled, they watched As the famous street descended into chaos Roars were thrown Screams struggled to stay in Tears drowned But nothing stopped Men from two sides If they could even yet be called men Attacked eachother And the birds could not figure out why A hundred years later The blood had long been gone from the famous street And something was different in the air ~ It's almost the centenary of the 1916 Easter Rising! We remember the men and women who fought for Ireland to be a free and democratic nation, those that died in the fight and those who were executed after to set the pathway for a new nation. I felt the best way I could commemorate this was to do what I know best; to write Hope you enjoyed! I write a new blog every Wednesday Facebook: justaoifethings Twitter: @justaoifethings Instagram: @justaoifethings
Post a Comment
Read more

Friends and Mental Health

No, life is not like a novel. Unfortunately. So one person will not come and understand all your woes and make life better.  It's unfair to expect so much out of one person. One person cannot be perfect. One person cannot understand everything you're going through, even if they have the same mental illness as you, no matter how much they'd like to. I've met multitudes of people with anxiety and depression. Some of us understand eachother and get along, and some of us just don't. And that's fine. You cannot expect one person to fulfill your needs as a human. I'm not telling you that you need a million friends or have to be a social butterfly. Just a few, so you don't rely on one person. There's something about life today that makes us forget that others are humans, with emotions and needs. I learned the hard way that you cannot impose all your problems on one person. People tend to be kind and cautious when you're going through a tough time,...
Post a Comment
Read more